Well today I am going to get a little personal about myself. I have never really put myself out there on my blog like this so I am a little nervous but I feel the cat needs to get out of the bag. If you are just stopping in you can read more of my trip to the Joy Thigpen workshop here and here.
Weekly I pull out my journal of notes and review the things I learned from those four days at Serenbe. I like to take a look at the details that really struck me and see how I have implemented them into my life. One of best discussions we had that hit me the hardest was when Joy talked about how we are taking care of ourselves.
Sometimes this industry can really take a toll on your soul and self worth. I know for me I am constantly comparing myself to those around me and those I see on Instagram and wedding blogs. I was putting a lot of my energy into worrying about others, comparing myself to others, and being jealous of others. I realize now that these actions are not healthy at all, in fact they are down right unhealthy! But deeper than that I realized that I was my own worst enemy, I was so full of negative energy I wouldn’t want to hire myself!
For the last six months I have really worked hard to clear out the negative energy in my personal and professional life. I seem to have slipped off the radar in a lot of aspects. I made lists, looked at what was brining me down, and what adjustments I could make to shift everything to a more positive energy. I made some VERY drastic changes to my life that had a lot of people scratching their heads.
First, I realized that my soul was craving the country. If I have learned one thing it has been this. I can only handle the hustle and bustle of city life for about 3-5 years before I can’t take it anymore. I guess you can’t take the country out of the girl. So I made the choice to move outside of SLC to live in the country. A lot of people were shocked! I would get things like, “What about your business?” and “How are you going to still do flowers?” The truth is this, I can do flowers anywhere in the world. Heck I can plan and design a wedding anywhere! Yep, I just said it! If you think that you have to choose your vendors primarily on location you are misguided. I can source product anywhere in the world. I can have flowers and inventory shipped anywhere in the U.S. and if I travel out of the U.S. I have a network of amazing wedding professionals who I can lean on for guidance. I will talk about travel feels and the inner workings of making it happen next week!
Second major change for me was to quit my full time day job. By day I would work in the accounting field and on the weekends and evenings I was working in the wedding industry. That leads to lots of time off and lots of hours. So I took the plunge and decided it has to be one or the other. I either have to have the faith that this is my career path and that God will provide and bless me or not. But I won’t know until I try. So here I am, full time self-employed business owner.
So with moving and shifting to full time wedding designer I still felt really run down and off. So I started researching diets, exercise programs, all that good stuff we always do when we want a change. Should I go Vegan, Paleo, Clean Eating, on and on and on. There are so many choices it makes my head spin! So for me I started with a health coach who has been helping me adjust and re-wire my mental association with food. It has been awesome! Now for me it isn’t about being on a “diet” it is a full on lifestyle change. It has been a little tricky because I am such an emotional eater but I am learning and moving forward and to me that is the most important. Currently my diet consists mainly of lots of veggies and lean meats. I minimize my high carb and dairy. I also am working toward not eating anything processed. That one is hard for me; I am kind of a junk food junky.
Along with diet I have started doing Yoga, Pilates, going on walks and meditating. I used to be the type of fitness person who if I wasn’t sweating and wanting to throw up after a work out I didn’t think I did it right. With research and following my instinct I came to realize that isn’t being kind to your body. In fact that is the most unkind thing you can do. So I refocused and found activities that spoke to me energetically. These activities are still challenging but they don’t add any extra stress or anxiety to my body, which helps me feel better.
The workshop really helped me realize that my body and soul is my source of income. I can’t be creative, fun to be around and on my A-game if I am hungry, tired, or unhappy. Like any successful athlete they have to practice and take care of themselves. It is the same for being a creative. I can’t expect a high level of productivity if I am not fueling myself correctly. I had to find the things that were making me feel blah and replace them with things that make me feel A-M-A-Z-I- N-G!!!
How cute are all these adorable farm animals from my trip to Serenbe? I can’t wait to have my own little farm with animals. Thanks again for Kelly at Intertwine for the images. So grateful for your friendship and willingness to share you talent!